Don't make fun of my username

I turn lights on when I don't really need them all the time. But I make sure I shut them off when I leave the room no matter how long I'm gone.

I wait for the shower to really warm up before I jump in and I always wait for the water in the sink to warm up before washing my my hands in the winter.

haha

there was also this one time I had a party at my house and I dumped all the empty booze in my back wood, I felt really bad about that on.

I hope that's about as far as my bad acts for the environment go.

or something.
haha

well I had a really amazing night last night, my cousin mike came out of nowhere with Panic! At the Disco, Dashboard Confessional, The Plain White T's, and The Cab tickets. He got 4 for free and he couldn't find 2 other people to go with so he invited me and I invited my friend jackie while he brought his friend bruce. Now bruce and I use to be childhood neighbors, I use to play with that kid like everyday for years until I moved away and since he was 4 years or so older then me, we didn't keep touch.

(oh and for the record I only went to see dashboard confessional, all the other bands can suck my dick. hahah)

So we're all in the car pumped to go, it's like we all have known each other for like years so it's good times. we get in and find out our ticket won't let us into the floor area and that we have seats. so whatever, we go walk around and we see rock band and bruce was like "DUUUDE LETS PLAY, I'VE NEVER PLAYED BEFORE" but mike didn't want to play and we needed someone on guitar so some random guy comes up to us and he's like "dude I'll play" so we do it and we actually kicked all so the lady at the rock band station goes "you guys can move onto the next round if you want" so we're like "wuuuuut" and find out it's a competition to play on stage so we enter and we got the number one score.

So then they took the top 2 people and they're like "you're going on after the plain white t's, we'll set up a nice rock band thing on stage and just play the song and have fun" so we're all like "OH SHIT, WE GET TO GO BACKSTAGE"

So they set everything up, the other group of people played before us and then we were on. We played my own worst enemy by lit. The crowd loved us, everyone was singing along, jumping around, bruce ripped his shirt off, and we kicked ass.

so when it was all over they let us into the floor area and we got to watch dashboard confessional up close and it was amazing.

here's us playing:



Jackie- bass
Matt (the random guy)- guitar
bruce- vocals
me- drums

about a month before joe admitted to loving me, I was really into another guy. his name was jordan and he was everything I every wanted in a guy. When I say everything, I mean everything. He was taller then me, had an awesome accent (boston), really into games and GOOD anime, awesome taste in music, loved to be an asshole (not really something I like but I think it when a guy acts tough), smokes (so he smelled good to me), he was funny, had awesome tattoos, and he was really one of the easiest people to talk to ever and even better to listen to.

so for a really long time I just kinda tossed and turned at night thinking about the both of them and who I should try and focus on. To me, it seems like a horrible thing to have feelings for two people, I just feel guilty whenever I talk to them or something, it's just a weird feeling so I was just kinda constantly trying to make up my mind.

so now when I think about how things aren't going how I want with joe and when I think about how I basically shut someone else out of my life for him, it just makes it worst to be totally honest.

I tried talking to a few more times and I was even about to ask him if I could come up and visit him but the conversation totally steered another way and then I just felt awkward about asking him.

I mean someone asked me if it felt right being with him and now that I think about it, we're not even really in a legit relationship, but it's something I do want.

My head's just so messed up these days. I need a break which is of course something I'll never get.

Friday:
Got to the con a little late and waited in line to register. Not so bad since anime boston was 10 times worse but we could have gotten our badges the day before but they said they "weren't ready for registration" only pre reg. I blew 25 bucks on joker posters, 16 on X-day, 6 on a mask, 15 on a cell phone charger, 10 for parking, and 5 for coffee. I didn't go to an panels or workshops, popped into a few showings, and played a lot of pictochat and pokemon pearl. There was also the musical! it was pretty funny I just couldn't hear a lot even though I was in the second row :/ but I had to leave early because I had to talk to some people asap gaming room was pretty awesome but I'm not experienced enough to get into it with anyone. artist ally was cool, there was joker plushie I really wanted but they ran out like really soon.
the rave was fun, actually danced and everything. It was really fun, I just wish it was darker and the music was louder.

Saturday:
no panels just screenings, dealers room, gamers room, coldplay concert was fucking awesome but I read my watch wrong and made my aunt and uncle leave 2 hours early by accident, I felt so bad. lol I don't even like want to talk about it I just feel worse when I do. but anyways because I was stressed I bummed a cig off this guy mj and his crew and we all became friends really fast. they called me mo bitches because of my shirts which says "MO MONEY MO BITCHES" in huge letters hahaha it's really sweet. but yeah we raved and had a lot of fun. by the end of the night though I felt really sick so I had a good sleep that night.

Sunday:
best day of the won con if you ask me and because it had nothing to do with the con. I just hung out with all the people I met, mostly mj because we just walked around and talked. he was so awesome. I'm defiantly going up to boston to go visit them and for anime boston I'll meet up with them.

Hey.

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